Chatting with Ceejai

A new page in the life of Danny.

2007-12-11T07:43:00.000+11:00

Well guys it has been a lasy month for me, now it is time to get back into it and really start getting this weight off.

Over the last month exercise has taken a back seat, and I have gain a kg again, so it is time to start walking home from work, this is up to a 5 km walk, then I will try to go for a walk run around the block at 7.30pm, which is up to 6 kms round trip. I am going to go swimming for 30 mins every morning, then there is a bush walk here in Cairns called the red arrow so I will do three laps of that, twice a week.

I have also trying to low my blood pressure with high dosage of vit. C and L-lysine, don't worry there is no toxic levels for either, and if you take to much then your body just pisses the excess out of the body, no harm done. Better to be pissing vit. C then taking blood pressure pills for the rest of my life.

Well guys, I better go and get read, I have a session at the pool this morning before work.

What to do?

2007-11-22T17:37:00.001+11:00

Well guys!

Since being on here, the doctor has up graded me, and has made me fit to go to sea, but only if there is a medic on board as well, so this means that there is still no chance for me to go to sea while I am here in Cairns, as all the positions for AB cooks are filled.

Told my boss that if there is no chance for me to be on a ship in the next six months, then I may as well be somewhere where I can get onto a major warship. Yep looking at moving again.

I do miss Sydney, but I might try something different.

I got an email this week, asking for AB cooks to work on the training ship back down at HMAS Cerberus, (for those who don't know thats near Melbourne, VIC), I think I will put my name forward to the position.

This means that I will have to deal with recruits, (let's hope the naughty ones are cute and I have to punish them....).

Will have to get on the net and see what happens in Melbourne, as in the gay community. I know of the laird, and that is fun.

I think I have made up my mind....... I will put my name down for the job tomorrow and see how I go, if it is meant to be then it will happen.

Hey Dan. Really proud of you, keep it up,you can do it, and hopefully u will be flying this way soon.

I am much better now....

2007-10-29T20:30:00.000+11:00

Hi there,

Well as you have read, I was really depressed last time that I was on here.

Well I have improved over the past weeks.

1st off let me just say this......... I have so many wonderful friends, not only here in Cairns but , back down in Sydney, even in Canada, and traveling overseas, and now, in the UK, (No I wasn't going to forget you Dan, how's your training going????)

I have had a "life changing" experience on the weekend of the 21st and 22nd October. I went to the Psychic Expo here in Cairns, and I met a wonderful lady call Wanda Shipton, and what this amazing person did for me, was to draw my life guide.

My life guide is a medicine man from an Indian tribe, and his name is Wolf Whisper Spirit. and for the past week I have been feeling him guiding me in the right direction.

I have also started to study the "The Secret"' which is about the law of attraction. Basically what you desire, and let you thoughts go with your desire then there is NOTHING stopping you from having what you desire.

So I have change my way of thinking, I now think of myself as that fit hunk of a guy, and I know that, that will happen. I have started to think that I will be promoted in 6 mths, and I know that will happen.

I have tried the law out today, and it works......

All day today I had positive thoughts, about myself, work and my work mates, and nothing bad happen today, nothing negative.

So my biggest task is this Friday. I have to go to the doctors, and be weighed again, and I know this time He will let me go to sea.

So for all of you out there, sent some positive energy my way..........

I have come down in weight, I was 101kgs about 6 weeks ago, now I am 94kgs, still along way to go, but at least it is a start.

I have been promising a friend I would let her know how great full I am to her.

Sarah, I don't think I would have a easier time on the last ship I was on, (HMAS Labuan), without working under you on HMAS Melbourne.

On Melbourne you did teach me a thing or two, even though we lock horns more times then not.

I took the galley on Labuan from something that even a health inspector would have walked out of, and made it a galley to be proud of.

The CO and the XO was so pleased with what I did that they gave me a glowing report, and they wanted me to stay on, with the CO saying he was going to push to have me promoted. BUT I was made mec 301 for being fat.

Any way time to go and go for a walk/run around the block..

Chat to all of you soon.

If anyone asks..... I say......

2007-10-18T21:02:00.000+10:00

If you were to ask me today, what did I think of the navy. I would tell you, "it FUCKING SUCKS."

If you have not already guessed, I am slightly depressed today.

When did the depression today start? Around about lunch time.

I was joking around at work, by putting the next rank up from mine, on my shoulders, saying "Wow they look good on me", thats when my PO, (supervisor), said "Not for at least 5 yrs". And as most of you know I have been wanting to be promoted, had my heart set on it..... Well I guess I have finally worked it out.......... NEVER set my heart on anything, hopefully by not setting my heart on anything, it will not be broken so much......(LOL, I laugh coz I always believed I had a heart of stone).

You might be wondering what things have I been setting my heart on, well I will tell you.

*promotion
*travel, (go over to the gulf)
*nice things
*money
*own my own home (or 5)
*partner, just to name a few.

Sorry if I am bring you guys down but it is the way I am feeling ATM.

So what else is getting me down..... my weight, I have seem to hit a slow point, I will have up my training. How is the weight lost going? I hear u ask.......

Well since the last time I wrote on here, I have gotten down to 94.5ish, but have 2 weeks to get at least down to 90kgs, then I will be able to go to sea again. I have been told if the weight is off in two weeks, I could be going to sea for a couple of weeks just before Christmas, then in the new yr I will be put into my own galley by myself, so looking forward to that.

Ok guys....time for this little black to go to bed.

Night all,

Chat soon.

The skinner me.

2007-09-30T07:53:00.000+10:00

Well it has been almost one month since the doctor told me that I was to fat.

And I have tried a couple of ways to get rid of the fat.

Xenical, mmmmmm this didn't work for me, I put weight on with it. How it works is you have the pill with food, and the chemicals blocks your body from taking in the fat. So if you have fish and chips, or any fast food, you shit bright orange oil not good when your uniform is white.

So I have been on the Tony Ferguson diet for the past two weeks and I have lost 4kgs, I was 101kgs, now down to a slim 97kgs, I am losing around 2kgs a week. At this rate, in 9 weeks I will be a nice 79kgs, then all I have to do is keep it there.

I am still enjoying Cairns life, even if there is NO gay club to go to.

I am learning about the paperwork, that I need to know for my promotion, even though I am not holding my breath for it any more.

There is some paperwork, that I have to fill out to say that I plan to stay in the navy after my 4 years, because I haven't filled it out, my records reads that I am discharging. Might be a way to get my promotion.

Any way thats about it from me.

See ya soon.

That ugly "f" word......

2007-09-01T11:02:00.000+10:00

Yep.... That Ugly "F" word has reappeared.

I had to go to the doctors on Thursday, and he has made me Unfit for sea, which means I can not go out on a boat until I lose weight, Yep the "F" word is FAT.

I have reached the 100kg mark. I want to get back down to atlease 85kg, but for now I need to lose 5 to 6 kgs and keep it off for 2 mths and then I will be able to go back to sea, which will be April now, as all the ships up here have the cooks they need.

Now I will be able to get down to the weight I want before then.

I will have to find a gym, and start getting back into it.

Other news, I just spent 3 weeks out at sea, and loved been back in a kitchen, what can I say, I love cooking, and just want to do that.

Cairns life.....

2007-07-11T18:44:00.000+10:00

I am loving Cairns, settling in really quickly.

Just moved into my own flat.

Work is really good, doing things that I need to do for my promotion.

They are putting me on a ship for a month to see how I go, it is not one of the ships I want, but there is no other cooks in the navy at the moment the is able to take the ship.

I will be the only cook on the ship. So that is scaring the ship out of me.

I better get going i have a friends party to go to...

Chat soon.

It's time to go.........

2007-06-16T13:53:00.000+10:00

I can't believe that this Friday (22nd June) I will be back in Cairns.

I am looking forward to all that is going to happen over the next 12mths, but most of all the next 3 to 6 mths.

I have a plan of attack in my mind of what I want to happen.

For the 1st 3 mths I am thinking I would like to stay on land, so that I can get fit and so that I can do some courses that will help me get my promotion.

Then after 3mths, will get onto a ship and do my best.

This could all change when I get up there, because the navy being navy, nothing is set in concrete.

But I will look forward to what ever the navy throws at me.

I am also looking forward to catching up with my mates up there.

I better go and try to do some more packing.

Time is running out.

2007-04-27T06:28:00.000+10:00

I can't believe that it has been already 4 weeks since I had been told about my transfer to Cairns.

Now it is only 8 weeks away.

I am looking forward to it.

I had a chat to my DSO (2nd in charge of me), and she use to work in the office that I am going to, she told me some of the jobs that I could be doing.

But the big plus for me is, I'll be back in a town that I love and I have some great friends up there.

I also have great friends here in Sydney, but Sydney life makes it hard to catch up with every one.

Time for some news

2007-04-08T22:46:00.000+10:00

Ok.... some of you will be upset by the news......

I have be told that I will be transfered to Cairns on the 25th June this yr.

Help.

2007-03-10T11:14:00.000+11:00

I am going to get a tee shirt printed......

I need ideas on how to finish this sentance.

"It's fun and games until Grandma.........."

I have "Finds her teeth."

Just some news.

2007-03-06T16:41:00.001+11:00

NO I haven't found out what is happening with me and work yet.

I was meant to go to work on monday, but on sunday avo, I was putting on my shoes to go to the bar, when I hurt my back.

Just got out hospital.

So I will be going to work tomorrow, so hopefully I will find out tomorrow.....

Stay turned.

Lessons from Mardi Gras and Bear Essentials.

2007-03-04T09:20:00.000+11:00

Lesson 1. Shyness.

Shyness is my biggest fault. So many times did I find guys so hot, but I was to shy even to say Hi.

Lesson 2. Fear.

Scared that if I did get over my shyness, and went and said hi. They would tell me to fuck off, or not even say hi back.

Lesson 3. I am not everyone's cup of tea.

I have found out this week that I am either too big or too small. And there is no one out there for someone who is neither. Being stuck in the middle of the two worlds. Not a cub. Not a bear.

Lesson 4. Not everyone is my cup of tea.

Some of the guys who did come to me and started chatting to me, were nice guys, but not my type. Isn't it funny how we set standards WAY to high. Yep even me. The type of guys who I like are muscle men, Muscle bears brings me to my knees.

So what have learnt.....

Just to be myself, who cares if someone doesn't like me.
Lower my standards alittle.
And just be happy.

Catch up time

2007-02-25T13:36:00.000+11:00

Sence the last post a lot has happen.

The ship that I am on, HMAS Melbourne, has gone to sea for the 1st time in 14mths. I had enjoyed being at sea, even though I was the night cook, got hardly any sleep, but loved it.

Anyway on thursday, I went to see my Career Manager, and there is three paths set out before me.

Stay on Melbourne till the end of the end year, then be posted off.
Stay on Melbourne for 4 mths then go somewhere, depending on where the navy needs me.
Or move to Cairns, and work on the patrol boats for a yr or more.

So I have no idea what to do....

Oh well will have to wait for tomorrow.

What a great day......

2007-01-09T10:37:00.000+11:00

Never in my life had I ever expected to be able to do this again.........

Ray, you are amazing person. giving and unselfish.

Once again, Ray has let me play with his kids, and how can you not love these animals.

This time, Ray had two 8 week old lion cubs called Amy and Ethan, what amazing animals they are, both have different personalities.

Amy, she loves the attention, but Ethan is a little shy.

I have pictures of Amy climbing all over me. It still brings a smile to my face.

Learning.....

2007-01-06T20:51:00.000+11:00

One of the things that I have promise myself this year, is to learn more.

And one of the things I want to teach myself, is how to make the most out of my blog. As you can see it is VERY basic, I want to added a picture of myself, add a photo ablum, all in all, jazz it up abit.

I also going to teach myself the art of archery, 3D, it is something that I have wanted to do for over a year. I have the compound bow, just need to get some new arrows, then go to some beginners class. I have been thinking of going camping with some mates and just get use to the bow, But both of them have gone to sea, yes they are in the navy aswell.

Anyway, Here I am, sitting in Brisbane Airport, just about to fly to Cairns for a couple of days.
Tomorrow I have to go and visit my brother, as one of his sons got married today. He is very upset with us, (his other brothers and sisters), for not going to the wedding, but what are we to do, we live over 2500kms away. If they keep the wedding date in August, then they would have more of us going. SHIT happens I say.

My really good friend in Cairns, has just finished a IT course, maybe I should get him to show me what photo program to buy, and how to use it.

I have been chatting to this guy online and he does this artwork, with photos and computers, don't really know the name of it, but what I have seen I am keen to give it ago.

With work, I am going to start standing up for myself, lately I have just let people walk all over me. This is one of the reasons why I have taken this break short notice.

I REALLY want to go to the gulf this year, sitting dry dock for a year has done my head in, I am sick of not doing anything or not going anywhere. It is NOT what I joined up to do, I joined to travel, to see the world, to do what I have been trained to do.

OK I better get off this soap box, before I fall off it.

Cya soon.
Dan the MAN.

Another year GONE.

2006-12-31T09:02:00.000+11:00

Well thats a wrap on 2006.

Didn't go anywhere,
Didn't do anything for great importance,
Didn't find anyone,
Didn't put on anymore weight, (Thats a good thing.)
Didn't save for my holiday,
Didn't move out of the navy base,
Didn't keep most promises, (Thats a bad thing.)

Yep 2006 was a year of "Didn't".

So this Year, I'm going to make it a year of "Did that"

Just some of the things I want to do this coming year.

*Get on a ship that is going somewhere and doing something,
*Get promoted,
*Get rid of this gut of mine,
*Get to know more people,
*Get my ass into gear and save for this holiday of mine.

My biggest plan for 2007 is this trip of mine.

A round the world trip, starting here in Sydney then Hawaii, San Fran, Vancouver, New York, London, Paris, Hong Kong, Cairns then back to Sydney.

I am also going to take up archery, already got the bow, just waiting to see when the beginners classes start.

This year I am going to become better at my job, and show that I am ready to be promoted, BUT i want to go over to the gulf before that promotion.

One other aim for this year is to get a metal, (gong). Starting to feel left out.

Thinking of marching in my home town for ANZAC Day.

Anyway....... Better go,

HAPPY NEW YEAR......

BAD NEWS

2006-12-01T22:19:00.000+11:00

I just found out...... the only person on the ship, that I really care about.........is leaving.

So this puts me in a postion of not knowing what I want to do.

So many choices for me.

Stay where I am...

Move back to Cairns....

Move to Melbourne...

Move to Perth.....

All I know is that I want to go over to the gulf, and be promoted next yr.......

The BIG question ........ WHY?

2006-11-12T23:15:00.000+11:00

WHY???????

Why does EVERYTHING I plan goes to shit?

Why do I care anymore?

Why is the sky blue?

Why is gay sex a pain in the ass?

Why am I the only gay guy to NOT like Kylie?

Why do I even care about my work mates?

Why Why Why WHY?

Just SOME of the questions going around in my head.

Let's try to answer some here.

HHHHMMMMM it is going to be harder then I think....

Ok, I think why everything goes to shit is coz I am good at having the idea, but find it hard to keep the movation going to see it to the next stage, eg, today was the first day for a new group to start up n sydney, for the defence personnel that is gay. I had 6 people say the would like to come to the movies with me.

NO ONE turned up.....

I tried, but beacuse of what is happening at work, (long story to follow), I had to change the date, close to last minute, but I have the guys a chance, and they said they were happy with the change.......... SO WHY DID NO-ONE TURNED UP?

DO I CARE???????

Next question.....

WHY don't I care?

I don't care anymore coz this heart of my has started to turn to stone, cold and lifeless.

I have to go to work tomorrow where there is a girl, who has passed the cooks course for the navy, YET she still asks the most basic questions, questions that someone who has NEVER cooked before would know. If I was a head chef in a resturant in the real world, I would say she would not have a job with me, and I would tell her to NEVER cook again. She has duty tomorrow, which means that she has to prepare the next days meals, breakfast, lunch and dinner, one of the other cooks wants me to help her, but I say, where was the help when I joined. Just because I was a chef before I joined, doesn't mean I know everything NAVY.

Why don't I like Kylie?

I just DON'T.

Work mates...

There is only ONE person in the kitchen at work that I care about..... A lady with a heart of GOLD, hence WE call her MUM.

Mum will do anything for anyone, she willgo out of her way just to help you, even if it puts her behind in her work.

One thing I will be doing this year....... is to make sure that I don't add to her work load, I will go out of my way to try to make it easier for her.....

Love ya Mum.

She would have to be the one of the only people I really care about on the ship.

13th Sept 2006

2006-09-13T01:45:00.000+10:00

Yes I know it has been a long time.

I got alittle busy with life.

Well sence the last time we have chatted , I have managed to lose the weight to go to sea, I am now a nice 89kgs, and people are noticing it even more, (time for new photos for the profiles).

The ship I'm on is still in refit, and we are looking at sailing in December. Next year is going to be abit full on, with HMAS Melbourne doing weekly runs, then a Christmas Island trip.

I am now focused on getting my weight down to 79kgs or less, and getting promoted as soon as I can, looking at june/july next yr, I am hoping that this will get me onto a diferent ship. One that might be going to the gulf.

Wednesday, 9th August

2006-08-09T16:33:00.000+10:00

Well, my trip as come to end.

And I am paying for it, as I walked along the beach yesterday, walked about 5 to 10 kms with just a singlet on, so I am burnt on back of my neck, on my shoulders and on the back of my legs, but atlease I will be tanned.

But I have had a great time up here, Thanks to Ray and to his "KIDS", Thank you for the pics and hopefully I would like to do it again, BTW the kids are three 6 months old loin cubs.

And always thanks to my really good friends Rob, Graham and Gordie, these three are my reason for going up to Cairns.

I am not sure when I will able to come back up here, as I am trying to save my holidays to go overseas. But I hope I can get the long weekends off to go up to visit, atlease this way I don't lose to much off my holidays.

Sunday the 6th of August

2006-08-06T21:26:00.000+10:00

I cannot believe that I have not got on a computer to tell you about this sooner.....

What I day I had yesterday.....

To start from the begining, I have been chatting to a guy online for over a month, and when I told him that I was coming up Cairns, I asked him if it was possible to get a couple pictures of me with his Lion cubs.

And you guessed it......

I had them taken yesterday.

Tuesday the 1st August

2006-08-01T09:19:00.000+10:00

Hi there...

I know it has been ages, so here a update.

I have finished my month of duties and now I am on a 9 day holiday.

I have gone to Cairns QLD, to get away from the cold of Sydney, How cold can it be in Sydney..... well on sunday night at about 0200am it was 9 degrees on the filght deck.

With the weight.... Well I have lost 3kgs and 5cms from my waist in 3 weeks, and now the doctors want me to lose 3kgs in 2 weeks, that will bring down to a nice 88kgs, but I want to get to 75 to 80 kgs by Oct, so that I can start to build muscle, I have always wanted either to be or have a muscle bear, and sence my sex life is as dead as a door nail, it is time for me to get into shape, and have guys chase me.

What a lovely day here in Cairns, just gone 0930am and it is 24 degrees. I will be going for a walk soon to the beach, that is something I need to do, that is start walking more, which will help with the weight.

The flight up here was better then normal, as this was the first time I had a male cabin crew on virgin blue, he was nice to look at but not much else.

I have alot to do here in Cairns, and one of them is get a tan that everyone back in sydney will be jelous of.

ok I better go for my walk before it gets to hot...

Chat Soon.

Dan the MAN

Tuesday 11th

2006-07-08T23:15:00.000+10:00

Catch up time again....

Saturday.

I was on the ship just doing duty watch so not much happen. Yesterday ADI had to pick a crane that almost fell into the dry dock. Lucky that it fell accross the cassion and not on the ship, or even worst, into the dry dock which is about a 53 foot drop, someone could have been badly hurt or even killed.

We also had a toxic hazard, and the fun thing was that I was up getting lunches when I heard it on the radio, but I keep on getting the lunches, coz I throught it was a exercise. So when I got back to the ship I found out quickly that it was not an exercise, that it was for real. No one was hurt.

I didn't do anything, as in going for a walk or gym, I am eating all the wrong foods.

Sunday.

Well still on day watch and nothing happen at all. When I finish at 8pm I will have 24hrs off.

Monday.

Day I did nothing much, slept in to about 9am, which was good.
I had to go to 'sureslim' today and I weigh the same as I did last week whick was 94.10kg, but when I got back on base I got on the scales in the gym and it said that I was 91.6kg, so I don't know what is happening.

I think I will go with the gym scales, coz it makes me feel like I have lost some, where as the sureslim scales it makes me feel like I have failed and to just give up. But I will not be giving up as I want to get back to sea.

Still not eating right, so I am going to sit down and work something out, and I hope that will show on the next weigh in.

Ok it is 0321 on tuesday morning, I have gone form day shift to night shift, and yes it is more boring then day shift. ok going to walk, might see if I can get onto the floor of the dry dock and get some more pics.

Ok I am signing off for the night.

Chat soon.
Dan the MAN.

Friday 7th

2006-07-07T14:43:00.000+10:00

Today I am on duty watch, this is where I sit on the ship, and if there is a flood, fire or toxic hazard, we have to put the fires out, stop the flood and find where the toxic hazard is coming from.

It has been a quite day, I have only just got the internet back on, a big thanx to my best friend Portland, she is quite a gal.

I went to the gym yesterday and worked to back. After the gym I went and seen Karen who work at David Jones in the city, she is my other best friend.

I got my back waxed yesterday aswell, and it feels like a sunburn. I like the look, but don't think I will get it done again.

So Happy with Myself.

2006-07-05T20:59:00.001+10:00

I am so happy with myself. I told my PTI about the 4kg lost and he is proud of me, so much that he started to brag to the other personnal trainners.

He is so helpful, and has time for my forgetfulness on what he has just explained to me.

Starting to feel abit sore now, (9pm) after my workout with him at 4.30pm, but it is all good.

Today at work we had leadership training, which was like team building, had alot of fun with that.

Then helped Portland with some stock returns. The young AB COOK came accross to help, but I think I need to have a talk to him, coz he is starting to make feel like I have to do every thing he says, making me feel like a little puppy, I need to put a stop to this as I have seriority over him, plus I need to show that I am ready to be promoted to leading seaman, and it does not look good that I am doing everything he says. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to stop helping him.

I have tomorrow off, so I will be going to the gym coz I will be in duty watch.

Will chat soon.
Dan the MAN

Tuesday 4th July

2006-07-04T19:17:00.000+10:00

Today feeling abit sore, but really enjoying the gym.

This morning, I went to the navy gym and did abit of cardio work, didn't get on to a walker, but worked up a sweat on the bike.

I weighed myself, I am down to 92.2kgs, down 4kgs, and I only started the diet 4 days ago.

I wonder how much I would have lost if I followed the diet to the letter. I will have to get in and really start planning my food for the day.

What a shit day today was. It rainned most of the day, but did manage to get a couple of good pics of the city and the opera house/bridge, I will upload them as soon as I get them off my camera.

The big news of the day........ I met Peter Garett, the lead singer from a aussie band from the 1980's/90's, the midnight oil. It was really not a big deal.

I need to go and put my music onto a friends ipod, and get ready for tomorrow, I have a session with my PTI tomorrow avo, looking forward to it, can't wait to tell him about the weight lost.

Soon my friends will be able to see the weight lost.

Ok chat soon.
Dan the MAN

Monday....

2006-07-03T00:10:00.000+10:00

Catch up time...

Sunday. Nothing much happen today, coz I was at work all day, which was good, made money and not spent it.

With the diet, finding it hard not to eat for 5 hours between meals, it is hard to work with food and not eat as well.

Did a really bad thing today, I tryied a deep fried mars bar, will not be doing that again, to me it was not very nice, but hey if you have never tried it before, give it a go.

Besides the mars bar, i was pretty good, when I did eat at work it was mostly raw carrot, or fruit.

Monday...

Back at work with the navy, and today I finished a job I started over a month ago. Because the ship I'm on is in refit, most to all of our galley, (kitchen) stuff is in a container, and the cooks share it with the medics and the stewards. But the container has became a real shit fight, with poeple just throwing stuff in there. So I got in and move most of the stuff out and repacked it, (well started it over a month ago, it started to rain and I also had to do a month of duty watch.), so all of the cleaning that I did got messed up.

So today, (monday), I was able to get into the container and finished it, and god how good does it feel to finish a job.

Went to the gym with my PTI, and he was upset with me coz I didn't do and cardio on saturday, he understood that I was at work all day on sunday, but he was happy with the progress that I am making so far.

We had a committee meeting out at EH, not much that I can report on from that.

And that is about it.

Dan the MAN.

Saturday morning.

2006-07-01T12:35:00.000+10:00

Well I went out last night, and I had friends tell me that I am looking thinner. But I think it is too soon to tell.

I had a couple of guys trying to crack on to me, but at the moment I have a low sex drive, and get more out of porn.

I started the diet today, need to do some planning, but I don't think I will have any troubles.

I have to go to work at Hoggies this avo starting at 3pm and I think I will be finished at about 11.30ish, I should do about 8hrs which will be good.

It is a really nice day outside, I should be out there getting some sun, but feeling abit slugish.

Ok I better get ready to go to work.

Chat later.

It is Friday.......

2006-06-30T20:35:00.000+10:00

Thank god it is friday.

Today was a good day at work, I made some scone for the ship's company, and everyone loved them.

Had a gym session with my PTI today, and I am starting to feel really sore, but no quiting here, I want to be a muscle cub by christmas.

I am just about to head to met up with some friends, I am not going to get smashed.

Just going to to see what is out and about.

I better go and get ready.

Chat soon.
Dan the MAN.

I am happy today

2006-06-29T22:04:00.000+10:00

Well I am happy now at 20.00, (10.00pm), But this morning I feel cheated abit, Portland couldn't going walking with me to the opera house, so I went to the cardio room at the gym, couldn't get onto a walker so had to sit on a boring bike, (until I looked up and seen this really cute ass in fornt of me), stayied on the bike for 30 - 40 mins, then went and had a shower and went to start work.

Got to the cooks desk, only to be told that it was just going to be me and two females setting up the bbqs, this is where I got really pissed off. The other male AB cook told me that he was not going to do anything coz it was his last day on the ship, (so why the fuck come to work at all), anyway, the bbq needs to be set up and cooked by 11.30, and by the time I got the keys to the ute found to the two girls that was going to help me, it was 09.50 and I had not even started.

One girl, (a cook), all she wants to do is complain, cry, bitch and chat to anyone in earshot, so hardly to no work from her, and the other one, she is the best, not even a cook, but she will roll up her sleaves and get in there and get the job done, I would work with her anyday.

To cut this story short..... we just got the bbqs set and cook by 11.30, it was close but we go there. I was so pissed off, all I could think of was to put in a transfere to Melbourne, (the city), but didn't.

I need to stay on the ship and get to sea, so that I can be promoted by this time next year.

Feeling sore today from yesterdays gym work out, I think I am going to feel it tomorrow, plus I have another workout with my PTI tomorrow, going to be working legs, back, shoulders and abs.

Tomorrow morning I will be going to be cooking scones for the ship company. They love it when I cook scones for them. But next week I might change it to some sort of cookies.

It was payday today, so I went and got myself a white play station portable, just waiting for it to be fully charged, then I will give it go....

Anyway that is about all I have. So it is off to bed.

Chat later.
Dan the MAN.

2006-06-28T05:50:00.000+10:00

Well, I know it has been an other couple of days, I think I need to do my blogging before chatting to friends..

This picture is of me taken in Jan this year. And as you can see I need to lose some weight. I would love to become a muscle bear/cub, and look like JBear, Mr Manacle. That is him on the right....

Ok lets play abit of catch up..

Monday.

Started back into the gym, with a personal trainer, we sat down and had a chat about what my goals are, which is to lose about 15kgs to 20kgs by either half way through Sept, or at the end of Sept. and he said that is a reachable goal, by losing that much weight I will be able to go back to sea. So looking forward to that.

Tuesday.

This morning Portland and I walked to the opera house from garden Island, and it felt great. I am turning into a real fitness freak, and as you can see from the pics above, I have to be.

Nothing else happened, just work. It is a little boring at work at the moment as we are still in dry dock, soon to be out in 16 days, but not sailing anywhere till Jan. next year, can't wait. Can you tell that I love my job, just want to be cooking.

Wednesday.

Not much happen at work today, did some training as I will be going into duty watch for a month starting on the 7th of july, then going to Cairns for a week, god it will good to feel warmth again.

Went and had a training session with my PTI, and he smashed my chest, bis and tris, going to feel that over the next couple of days.

Dan the MAN. signing off

Not doing a good job

2006-06-25T09:12:00.000+10:00

It is Sunday morning at 0910, I've now missed two days writting in here.

Well on Friday, I went and seen my doctor, and he said that he will have to take me off the ship, and I told him that if tat was to happen, he could send me to HMAS Cerberus, I have been thinking of this for a long time, and going back down there it would, serve two goals of mine, one, will get fit, and two, I get to perv. on the new recuits.

The doctor has put me on some tables to get the sugar levels in my blood right, I start on monday.

I went to the 'Food and Wine Show" here in sydney, and had fun tasting all types of wine and gingar beer, got a bit tipys by 1030, it was fun, alot nice wines, and some really nice looking guys to look at.

Stayed in friday night.

Saturday...

did nothing much today, got my room in some sort of order.

I went to Hog's Breath and worked for 11.25hrs.

Went out to the mancle afterwards, and seen alot hot guys.

Bumped into one of my friends that i have not seen of a couple of months, and he said that i have lost weight but i can't see where.

Sunday.....

I have taken tomorrow off work, I sould go in and see if I cancel it, but I might just relax for the day, I have a personal trainner, and we are doing the 1st session on monday avo.

I am really looking forward to getting back into the gym, But I need a gym partner, someone who is going to push my ass into shape. I have so many wonderful people on my ship, the PTI, (personal trainner insturctor), is going to write me outa program, I have a girl who wants to go the gym with me, and other girl who wants to going walking with me, the only problem, is there is only so many hours after work.

I better go and get ready for work. Working down at Hoggies again today, start at 1100, hopefully I will be finished at about 2130ish (9.30ish), with a hour break.

I will chat again tonight.

Ceeya soon.
Dan the Man.

Day One

2006-06-21T22:13:00.000+10:00

Well Hi there.....

This my 1st time at writting anything like this....

But I hope to do this every day, so i can kep a track of myself...

Ok, just in case there is someone out there that will read this, I will tell abit about myself.

Iam a 32yr old male, Iam classed as bear/cub, more bear atm, but hoping to change that before Christmas this yr..... What do I mean, well i work as a cook in the Royal Australian Navy, (RAN), and the navy tells me that i am over weight, so sence Nov. last yr I have been trying to get my ass into shape.

I can pass the yearly fitness test, and still carry out my duties on the ship, so I guess they are worried that coz I'm fat, I could have a heart attack out at sea.

I did boot camp with fitness first, and enjoyed doing that, so i will look at getting back to that soon. I am very lucky, coz there is about 3 people on my ship who wants to get into the gym with me, too whip me into shape, too bad that they are girls, coz it would be more fun, (well for me anyway),too have a hot guy getting me into shape, but i guess with the girls we can rate he guys in the gym.....LOL.....

I went to sureslim today and signed up with them, it costed me $695.00, BUT if it works, and it is going too, it will be money well spent.

My aim is to become a muscle bear, by this time next yr. I plan on doing a round the world trip at the end of 2007, and want to be hit on by some really hot guys.

I have a friend who is overseas at the moment, and reading his blog, it sounds like he is having fun, he has been away for about 5 to 6 weeks. I have been missing him. Hopefully we can do dinner when he gets home, so he can tell me all about it.

I have just finish watching Brokeback Mountain on DVD, I have seen it twice now, and it still gets me thinking...... I think about how nice it would be to have someone there for ya, to come home too, to share the day, the ups and downs, then when Jack get killed, (sorry if you have not seen the movie), and I think, if that person that I loved, died, I don't think I could cope, so by the end of the movie, I come to this conclusion.......

"Always live the day to the fullest. Love friends unconditionally, and Get out there and just have fun."

That is why now I can go out on a friday night, or out with friends, and go home by myself, and know that, 'I have just spent time with someone'. Don't get me wrong, I still need release every now and then, but that is what fuckbuddies are for, (and S.O.P's, (Kens @ HQ)).

Ok time to finish up for the night, will chat tomorrow.

Dan the MAN.